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Wasn’t going to go for my walk today but I decided to afterall. The whole point of committing to fitness and doing it even when you don’t feel like it.
I know I’m going to be where I was before it’s just getting started is the problem.
I admit i have not been going for my walks this week, with everything that been happening getting ready to start my new job as the administrative assistant for U.P.S. things have been hectic to say the least. Not to mention the fact that I also might be getting hired at BMW which looks promising. My days have whizzed by without a whisper and before I know it’s night time.
My left foot, heel to be precised, has been killing I literally limp out of bed every morning i think it’s from all my “Victoria Secret” days of standing (another reason why I hated working there), my foot just hasn’t been the same, there are some days i can’t even walk on it. I don’t know what’s going on, when I go for my walks the pain is excruciating afterwards; i think maybe I need new shoes for exercising my size 9’s are cramped and besides when you exercise you feet expand believe it or not so it’s best to always go a size up. If the pain keeps up I’m probably going to have to see a foot doctor to get an accurate reading on what’s going on with it.
Last time my feet hurt I was too overweight, I still am but not as muich as I was, it’s another reason why I have to push myself to do this but I don’t want to hurt my foot in the process of it, so even though I am working out I try not to be so intense and gradually work my way up. I have to admit, my foot shouldn’t be hurting this much, especially after I get up in the mornings.
On the bright side my eating habits are going very well I think I’m consuming around 1500 calories on a daily basis sometimes 1200, I tend to rotate so my body won’t get into habit.
I’m sort of intimidated to go back to the gym, it’s better than my last gym in my apartment building in Maryland but there’s loads of gym buffs, I know they don’t care and are into themselves but I can’t help but feel a bit inferior being around them. I’m sure it’s my insecurities in the way but every time I go there I just feel super insecure I shouldn’t because I’m sure they’re just as insecure as I am if not even more so but still I can’t shake the feeling. If I’m really going to loose this weight I better find a way to shake it and just do it.
The gym has so many high end workout machines and a weight room plus the apartment complex provides exercise classes like Zumba, yoga, and Pilates but I just can’t bring myself to go and honestly I want to literally kick myself in the butt for not going for it, it’s an awesome opportunity and I know once I get out there I’m going to have a blast so I just need to get out there and I will. I’m just going to take a deep breath and dive into it and be done with it already.